Weightloss. That’s what we all think about when it comes to dieting. But I’m really not concerned with that right now. After having August, breastfeeding has done a stellar job of taking me down to my normal weight–I just have to tone my pregnancy-induced muscle loss. I feel pretty good about my bod, honestly. However, my bod doesn’t always feel so great. Much of the time, it hurts.
I’ve spoken about my issues with stress sometimes. Not a whole lot, but when I’ve felt I should. I mostly want to talk about it occasionally to allow others to know what I seek to know as well, “You are not alone.” My hubby knows how difficult it’s been for me, since he lives with me day-in and day-out. He knows how deep it can run. Most of it lies in the fact that I just seem to have inherited a set of genes prone to stress, anxiety, and depression. A set of genes that is sensitive. Sorry if it’s TMI, but oh well–I get constipated after riding in a car for two or three hours. That’s not normal. I can not let go of problems, sometimes for years. That’s NOT normal. It runs in my family, as well as other neurotic behaviors and personality types. In the winter, I get SAD. In the summer and spring when it’s very sunny for long stretches of the day, I feel high sometimes (in a very happy, “look on the brighter side” sort of way) as the sunshine seeps into my skin. This is not a very productive way of living. It borders on insanity, and it also borders on manic depressive.
That said, though genes are powerful, I know that we have power in choice. One of the huge lessons we can learn from God’s decision to let us choose to love Him, not just make us automatons who “love” him without choice. Anyhow, I have run into many people who seem like they’ve given up on life. I have great reason to not follow in their path. Though I’ve been tempted many times in the past few months to do just that. I’m going at this with my full force, because I have too much to live for. Too much to hope for. I can’t give up on my life. It may be hard for some to understand these things, but that’s okay. I can’t always understand other people’s issues and problems, either.
So we’ve tried a lot of things. I have done acupuncture, and successfully used it during pregnancy to destress. I’ve done herbal remedies, yoga, working out for endorphine release, lots of things. I was previously a vegetarian, but don’t think that’s the way my body is made to be nourished. Now, we are trying a new approach. Per my nutritionist, I am going on the Page Diet, Phase 2. Today is actually my second day of being on it, and let me say, I feel like crap! But if this puppy does the trick, I will stick to it.
Here’s the basis of the Page Diet: Paleo, basically. Protein 3 x a day (from pastured, free-range animals, which we are currently trying to figure out); as many of certain vegetables as you want. I can have quinoa, Ezekiel bread, or oats 2-3 times a week, but no more. Limited fruits (I can only have a few fruits, which is so weird to me… Apples, grapes, and a few others) and NO sugar. Of course, we can’t totally avoid it, but sugar is something I am supposed to try to completely avoid. Along with that, eliminate processed flours and grains. I can have butter, nuts to some degree, plenty of water, and of course I’m jumping with joy…. I can still have coffee if I don’t overdo it. When we came home from our visit to see my Doc, we had to take a huge deep breath. It seemed there was nothing in our pantry, or in the fridge, or in the freezer, that we could eat. Last night, we had heaps of Kale with loads of butter and sea salt, topped with Kalamata olives.. and it wasn’t half bad. But I still felt hungry. We’re going to have to get on this grass-fed beef thing, or we’re going to be skin and bones! We’re having to rethink everything, and will probably be ordering offline and going to Trader Joe’s more.
If you want to know more about it, check out this link, but I’m going to give this my best. After this, my other options are far more medical, and I really don’t want to be on medication. You probably know why if you’ve been reading for any time at all. : )
I believe in food as a natural healer, an amazing resource we’ve been given, but can food really do this for me? Balancing my blood-chemistry makes a whole lot of sense. Half of the time, I feel like I could faint, and feel far too edgy. I am intrigued that a few weeks ago I started to do gluten-free, after experimenting with what was causing me problems, and then my nutritionist recommended this diet. I didn’t know how reliant I am on sugar, and today when I woke up with a headache, shakiness, and feeling very weak, I knew I was having withdrawals. This amazes me, because I try to eat a healthy diet! However, fruits really do have a lot of sugar, and your bod can’t deal with all of that. So I’m having to learn this the hard way now.
I’ll keep you in tune with what’s going on here at our place; I’ll update you with how I’m feeling after a few days. Hubs is going to do this with me, but is also going to eat things off the diet if he wants them.
Here’s to your health, and mine. Haha.
All my love,